Apologies for the silence. Besides burrowing through the stages of insight, I’ve been contemplating some new subjects for the site, as I’m starting to feel as if I’ve exhausted some of my characteristic obsessions for the time being.
In any event: on monday, after several hours of exquisitely agonising observation of fundamental suffering, I seem [...]
Magickal Record 03-29-07
Magickal Record 03-23-07
Sometimes things have to get worse before they can get better, in which case things have gotten better, and will continue to do so.
My vipassana practice has taken on a tenor of more or less continuous pain. The fundamental delusion of being a separate and permanent self has revealed itself as untenable, but there [...]
Augoiedes Finale 2 of 3: Flowery Atomic Heart
Rounding out my other discussions of concentration practice, we traverse such things as tantric iconography, nirvikalpa samadhi, how to not flame out like a rock star, and how to turn the thwarted idealisation of oneself into a working facsimile of the holy guardian angel.
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Direct download: flowery_atomic_heart.mp3
We can build this muthafucka… we have the technology.
a sacrifice
rejoice brothers and sisters
you will not be able to sleep through this
the rock and the chain and the lightning
and the boot on your neck forever and ever will not let you sleep
through this
through this
you will not be able to step out on the commercial for a diet pepsi
cause diet coke dissolves your teeth brothers and [...]
The Mosaic Effect 29: Together We Will Live Forever
By popular demand, we bring you an interpretation of “The Fountain”.
Reincarnation vs rebirth, the neurogenetic drama of humanity and the earth itself, true love vs dependency, James Joyce and Finnegans Wake, concentration unto madness, and the immanent vs the transcendent.
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Direct download: TME29-Together_We_Will_Live_Forever.mp3
Tattoo some tree rings on your arms and get down for tai chi [...]
Magickal Record 03-16-07
Right. Enough Bullshit.
Took me a little longer than I was expecting to kick the bug out of my system, but with the aid of some good quality vitamins, I believe that’s that. My own fault for going off them in the first place.
So it’s back to the gym today, and kung fu tonight. Have [...]
Evolution by the Numbers: Number Sixteen
number sixteen: doing it feels better than not doing it
In any practice, especially practice like we do here, there will be days where it feels like shit. There will be days where you’re too goddamn tired. There will be days when you can think of a million other things that seem a lot more important, [...]
Evolution by the Numbers: Number Fifteen
number fifteen: abandon comfort
almost by definition, the ideas of growth and evolution are antithetical to any notion of comfort. Any area in which you are content to simply wallow in an established state of affairs, is one where are not pushing yourself.
The area of physical and mental activity which is your normal or current comfortable [...]
Augoeides Finale 1 of 3: you don’t have to live like a $%#@ing cockroach
In which I pinch some conceptual structure from the buddha in order to pull it all together. Enjoy my convalescent, semi-fevered ravings on virtue, plato vs aristotle, why rationalisation is bullshit, and living a human life. And since I’ve mentioned it so many times; how to find out what your own values actually are.
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Magickal Record 03-09-07
well. that’s another week of my life I won’t be getting back.
Much of my practice has stagnated, partially because of an ill-advised binge of internet checkers, of all things, partly because I’ve been feeling a bit sick, and partly because I’ve realised if anything is going to get done vis a vis the clinic I’m [...]
